SD-7, I'm glad you're starting to come to grips with things and seeking the help you need.
I have an idea of what to do with your books. It's an idea I've been thinking about proposing here, anyway, before you even mentioned having books available.
Lets have a sort of JWN Book Borrower's Club? When someone here has used the books to the extent he/she feels is necessary, and is willing to part with them, post the name of the available book or books in a "Book Borrower's" thread and someone who needs it at the moment can PM the person. The book is mailed to the person who needs it and then when that person is done with it, they post its availability on the Borrower's thread again.
This isn't a method for building a personal library. The books are on loan for whatever period of time a person might need them, or until they are able to afford their own copy for building a library. Then they pass them on to someone else who needs them.
The main negative I see in this is that those still "in" may have no viable way to receive these in the mail without being found out. That's up to the borrower to handle from their own end, though; I still think the system could work.
Any ideas?